December 30, 2009

Year End

This is a very photo heavy post. Sorry!
Oops! I forgot to post yesterday! My excuse is actually very legitimate though. Dear Charissa needed a cheerup day and she's house sitting for some friends so Sarah, Bri and I headed over there armed with chick-flicks, junk food, and sundae makings. It was a glorious time of girl talk, eating, and crying at good movies (I'd never seen The Holiday before yesterday, can you believe that?)
I love these girls.
I'm still not done with my Christmas wrap up, but I'm going to take a break from that today to tell you about a really neat thing my friends and I are doing in lue of New Years Resolutions. We have each created an account with the Day Zero Project. The Day Zero Project is a thing where you come up with a list of 101 things you'd like to do in 1001 days. Bri, Charissa, Jessica, Sarah, and I are all doing this together. Coming up with our lists has been alot of fun. We each put up our own things and then check each other's lists for ideas to steal. This is mine. Some of them are incredibly dumb and cheesy, but what the hey. I still need to finish my list (I only have 75 things!), but I'm excited to get started on them. We all chose to start this on January 1st and are all very excited to start!

I was going to do a year wrap up and go month by month, but as I read through my archives something stood out to me. I really grew alot this year maturity wise. I've said over and over again just how good this year was, but it really struck me today (which was much needed considering that I wasn't in a very good mood this morning). I looked over past posts and could see myself grow and change, and mature, and I grew happier. I think I'm finally back to feeling like myself again.

When I was 17 I wanted nothing more than to go to Juilliard and be famous, and when that didn't happen and my plans fell through I was totally lost and I think I really lost alot of who I was. Maybe it wasn't evident to everyone else, but I knew I wasn't me, and I was so lost and confused. If I had to pin down the one event that finally woke me up I'd say it was my accident last September. It literally changed my life for the better. After that I slowly began to figure things out, came up with a new plan, started dressing waaaay better, and left behind the sad little girl I always saw myself as. I was back to being vivacious and happy, and happy-go-lucky and even was working my way back to being brave. The girl I was last December is not the girl I am now and I couldn't be happier about that. I look at pictures from the end of last year and beginning of this year and all I see is a little girl. Whereas now I look and pictures and think how much stronger and more confident I am. I like seeing that.

I don't mean to get all sappy and corny or emotional (thought I was so emotional this morning that I started bawling at a really poorly written country song (don't ask why I was listening to country music)), but the end of the year is a good time to reflect and I think I have alot to reflect on. I'm so happy to look back over the past year and smile. I'm proud of the changes I've made and the changes I'm making. I like who I've become and who I am becoming. This has been an incredible year for me and I can only took forward to the future. I'm excited to see what life throws my way and how those things change me. Overall I am just excited for life and all the new things it will bring. I sure hope 2010 is as good a year as 2009. I've got a sneaky feeling it will be!

I hope you all have a very wonderful (and safe) New Year's celebration! What are you most thankful for from this past year?

1 comment:

  1. reading this made me feel thoughtful and sappy too :P there have been some great times this past year, huh? i'm so thankful that i'm able to work with you and bri and michael, it's forced us to hang out more!! and i'm super glad i've been able to hang out with charissa and sarah more. looking through those pics (especially the ones from SanFran) made me smile.

    love you!! i'm almost done with my list, i'll post it on my blog and on my DZP account when it's finished.