The 3 AM Muse

Blouse- Old Navy Hand me down from mom,

Belt- Ancient Torrid,

Skirt- Thrifted,

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So I have not been the best musician this summer. I mean I played and even performed once, but I've written a total of one (1) songs this summer. I've had great ideas for songs, but words never co-operated with me. I was beginning to fret over this pre-wedding, but in the wedding madness I didn't give a rat's hiney about my own music. Cut to Wednesday night (see what I did? I shortened my story!) and I was writing in a journal ya'll don't need to know about, and I got an idea for a non rhyming song. So I wrote it. It's not great, but it's pretty good. So then Thursday morning I was in the shower and suddenly a couple of lines popped in my head mid hair wash. So I continued to develop it as I showered and dressed. By the time I got in the car I'd written the whole first verse and chorus. I brought paper with me to work to write it all down. So then I worked on it some more Last night, and finished it right before bed. It's one of those "this is really about me, but I am pretending it's about someone else" songs. It's actually very good.

I haven't been sleeping the greatest lately. Not weird dream bad sleep, just general restlessness, and waking up more tired than when I went to bed. So last night When I was getting ready for bed I was thinking about something someone said about John Hughes when he died. This lady said that John Hughes films gave her hope as a teenager, because the weirdos always came out on top, the strange girl always got the guy, and the dork, always became cool- even if only in the eyes of the other dorks. I think this is also why I always loved his movies. Ferris Bueller's Day Off is My movie. It is just perfect. I was still thinking about this as I went to bed, and fell asleep, and then at 3.am I woke up flipped on the light and wrote the first half of a song about high school.

It's mostly brilliant. I kept reading over it thinking that there was no way I just wrote this, but I did. Some of the most brilliant rhyming I've ever done is in this song. It needs work, but it's really, really good right now. So I am excited and just a little annoyed with the fact that all of my best songs seem to be the ones that are written at 3am.

In other news I have a lot on my mind and it's all very confusing and annoying, So I am off to Disneyland to try and de-clutter my brain. Have a very lovely weekend!